got and then gave away a job

I had a job for a week but gave it up due to the fact that I was getting a rid there and person I was getting a rid from complained that the place was to far for them.

of course when I asked if going that far would be OK with them they said it would be fine.

I wish I didn't give up the job no I am back in the same place I was before.

wow I think I may be suffering from depression

I'm usually feeling down. So much that I sometimes don't have the energy to do things that I know I need to do to get me out of this position. and when I do have the energy I realize it's pointless because I will still run into the same blocks that I always run into.

sometimes I feel a bit of anger over being such an f-up.

self identifying my problem of over relying on others part 4 - my dark secret

a level of my over reliance on others that I am a shamed to admit was that years ago I was one of those Internet panhandlers.

I was hoping to raise money to pay for a car and pay off my student loans.

But since I was a hot young woman I didn't make any money. well that's not 100% true I had one kind soul that helped me out (and when I get on my feet I will pay this kind person back)


other then that one person all I got where a lot of insults.

self identifying my problem of over relying on others part 3

crap I just realized that my creating this blog is part of my over relying on others.

the whole reason I made it was that I was hopping to get advice from people I don't know.


Though I admit I have found that just writing down my problems and getting stuff of my chest I have at least start to feel better and allowed myself to se my flaws.

and even though I'm still in the same spot I start out as, I have new insight and have forced myself to fix the problems I've spotted in myself.

at least for the most part, there are things I see, think I fix and later noticed I still do them.

self identifying my problem of over relying on others part 2

another example of my over relying on people would be my plaining on moving to boston.

the reason I picked Boston beside they have a better job market, is the fact that I have a brother that lives there.

and the reason why I haven't moved yet (even though I have the greyhound ticket) is because he has had other things going on.


so yet another thing in my life that I have put in the control of others.

self identifying my problem of over relying on others part 1

a problem that I noticed I have that has been keeping me down is the fact that I have became over reliant on others.

For example I some times get calls/email dealing with job interviews, but becasue I don't have a car (or license) I am relying on others for rides.

But most of the time I can't get anyone to take me and so those are jobs I have passed up.

I've also limit my search to only go as far as I assume someone will take me. which is about a 10 mile radius.

this also has greatly increased the number of jobs open to me that I have passed up.

oK-mart

today I thought I had an interview at K-mart, but it turns out if you feel a resume out online they don't tell each stores HR person.

So when I got there I found out that the HR person wasn't there and I'll have to call her next week.

the odd thing is I called last week because I had to reschedule. So if my name wasn't on any records why didn't they say anything then.


But when one door closes another one opens, when I left K-mart I noticed the Tim Hortons across the street was hiring so I filled out an application there.

hard times just get harder

well for the last few months I though I was going to move to Boston. Which has a better economy right now then Michigan. And I hoped the move would make it easier for me to find a job.

But those plans didn't fall through.

and because I though I was moving I laxed a bit on the job hunt tip here in MI. But now I am back on the grind to find a 9 to 5.

I was sad about not being able to move but then more bad news hit home, when my mother told she is facing foreclosure.


the good news is I do have an interview Tuesday and maybe another interview coming up soon if I can get in touch with the manager again.

and maybe good news is my mom is close to having the money to pay what she owed the mortgage company (I put in all the money I had left, which was a little over a hundred bucks)